It's my life and I don't give up easy ..

My life has been hard on me ever since I've been suffering "GOUT"  I can't do stuff like how I wanted like when I was still healthy back then.  With this illness, it changed everything of my life.  At one time, I was to a point where I don't even want to live anymore and thinking about taking my own life.  It's hard but I realize that life is short and why not just live my life to the fullest.  What kept me strong is my family, my music, my friends, and my fans.  Even tho I'm suffering a lot of pain in me everyday thru this illness, I'm fighting my way out just to live and smile.  It's hard for me to show myself to the outside because of this illness, but I told myself... Don't be afraid cause you're just being you, and if they don't like it.. It just them.  I don't give up easy even tho I'm suffering with this illness(Gout).. I will live on with my life and try to do what's best to make me smile.  I believe one day I will find something to cure this illness out of my body... I believe in God!  If anyone of you out there reading this...  This is my life, I'm still living and smiling.  I DON'T GIVE UP EASY =)